what was i thinking?
did i really believe that I could start any type of life in Poland for the time I was here. honestly now, I am speaking a foreign langugae... and I spend all day teaching people how to speak my own language. ugh.

I thought if I came here it would help me with my writings. what is better than being alone to set and write a best seller... but it only makes me more sad than what I was prior.
I want my mom.